This was intense -
Not only that it was real and so honest - you could sense the depth of the different wmotions, the internal struggle between light & dark - and I personally think light, hope and perserverance won the day -
I hope you are feeling lighter after the written detox -when you mentioned that a higher power orchestrated things in such a way because He knows what you needed, it struck a chord because I believe so too
Walter, I think it is human nature to have moments of envy - the trick is in reframing it and bringing oneself back on track - you have a lot to offer - it will happen in the right time -