I think many of us can relate to what you wrote and in hindsight, when we think about it, it is so scary, cringy and really, what were we thinking about! But that was then and this is now, here we are older and hopefully, a little more wiser after seeing how life is -

You've got me thinking Liberty - teenage and hormones is not really a good combo especially when we're trying to fit in and don't listen to our intuition