I hear you -
I spent a better portion of my life trying to avoid some of the mistakes my parents made (in their relationships and such) But I have reached a point where I just feel compassion for them and sadness that I went through the same things despite trying so hard -
I stopped thinking too hard on things I can't control
About the pristine house and becoming organized - well that's one of them he he ...it will happen when it happens 😆