First of all, thank you for being open and honest in sharing your experiences, my friend
Secondly, going the self publishing route is garnering a lot of discussion these days - some of my other good friends on this platform also self publish and seem to be doing well...
For me, I do both - sometimes I self publish and sometimes I go with pubs - the smaller ones especially because I feel I am able to contribute more towards building community that way -
I think you are part of the new wave that is happening on Medium by choosing the self publishing route 💚👍