Depression is tough - I went through it for several years - I still have good days and bad days - I feel you never really completely recover from it -the thing is after a few years of therapy I am better equipped to deal with stuff than I was before - and no, you can't help it -it's not your fault you are suffering, it's not your fault you don't feel like doing anything or talking to anybody - but it is important to recognize the signs and reach out for help -